A More Ultimate Balance (Sestina)
The ideal in life has always been balance
but what of this imbalance called jealousy?
-when your lover loves another?
Honesty is the dictate of integrity
and integrity is the dictate of love
so, is love scarce or is it abundant?
I’ve always believed that love is abundant
and that love, like justice, rights the balance
but why is it that we are so limited in love?
Why do we even feel jealousy?
-that loathesome challenge to our integrity
when faced with the attraction of another.
But what is love if it does not flow to another?
Is not this divine attribute abundant?
Admitting and accepting attraction is still within integrity
and I only hope to live within that noble balance.
Despite the horrid occasions of jealousy
I still wish to be true to truth and true to Love.
I want to be a flowing conduit, not a congested capacitor of love
and we feel restless with just one another.
I do not wish to deny, but to transcend jealousy.
I wish to exist in the infinite field of abundance.
When letting go of denial I find balance.
When balanced I live with integrity.
That is the terra firma of my existence: Integrity
-and the air I breath is love.
Between these elemental principles I find balance.
Love must always flow to another
and Love is infinite, ever abundant
and we become strained in the constraints of jealousy.
But who is heartless enough to deny jealousy?
To deny it’s truths is also to deny integrity.
How can we feel this thorny fear in the face of abundance?
Perhaps the cure is even more love…?
Why need I worry when my lover takes another
when we have already established our own balance?
In love we feel jealousy, yet we can still return to love,
adhering to a confident integrity I can accept another.
Having found this infinite field of abundance I have found a more ultimate balance.